A light from within

I have been thinking a lot about this roller coaster that I am now calling my life :)

I have had many valleys and many mountains in my lifetime. I have lost a lot. a lot. But have gained so much more. There are times, when I can just step outside my "box" and realize that I have been so blessed. I have a Heavenly Father that truly is in control. And I know, I KNOW, that he is aware of my sorrows, and I know He celebrates in my successes and joy.

No matter where I am in my journey there is someone that is looking out for me. And there are more on the other side of the veil that celebrates with me.

I have found my peace with a lot that has weighed on my heart. I have found the place in my life for those heartaches. I have learned from them, and feel my own strength from within while I get past them.

I am so looking forward to the next chapter of my life. I know that there is a path for me, and I feel like I have my flash light for the path ahead. I have my light.

Home is where your heart is...

I went "home" for 4 days. And it was so great. I just love love love the Pags. ( I heard from a children's book once, that if you say something 3 times, you really really really mean it...)

I got to snuggle with my Madeleine, and hang with my Alex. I love that Dorothy and I are such close friends, and that Chris is like an older brother to me. I love love love that family.

And FRIENDS... I miss them so very much. What a great time to just sit and laugh. My boys came to the airport... and my girls went to lunch. I have been very blessed with friends.

And now I am back in Utah, and I know that this is where I belong. and I know that this is where I am meant to be. But it is such a warm thought of visiting Connecticut often.

I don't know much...

Only when one falls, does one truly look up.

I had a rough Sunday. You see, I had to sit alone at church. And anyone that knows me, know that that is very difficult for me. I hate to be alone. I hate not knowing people. And that is where my life is now.

When I was told to come to Utah, I jumped. I jumped off of the proverbial cliff, not knowing what was at the bottom. Sometimes I still feel like I am free falling :) But I did it! And I am here... and things are pretty good. I am starting to acclimate myself. And I never thought I would be doing this at 31, but I am.

But when we get in these "ruts" in life, we really have the opportunity to reevaluate our blessings. We realize what we truly have in out lives. And what things really make us happy. Who we truly are, and what we are.

We are children of Heavenly Father, and that all we need to know, right?

Can you hardly stand it?!

I am headed back to my "home" for 4 days. I am really looking forward to it. Sometimes all you need to recharge your batteries, is to have a 9 year old so excited to see you.

I still get a regular phone call from my Mad. I look forward to it every day. It is such a great smile-maker! She is so great. "we are best friends, you know!" How can that NOT make you smile.

I don't have my own kids now, but I can't imagine loving a child more than I love that little girl!

Laughter, the best medicine.

Sometimes we go through our lives much too serious. We forget to laugh, & let go of the silly little things that get us wrapped around an axle. We forget how it is to laugh so hard that our sides hurt-- to just let go of what is weighing us down. It could be a bad day, or just a bad stage in our lives.

So, remember to laugh. And laugh with those that we are with. Be happy.

This is Lucas, he makes me laugh.

beds are red...

I have a new bed.. for my new room. And it makes me happy. So I wanted to share...

Crisp Autumn Air

I can feel fall coming on. I love love love fall. It such a beautiful time of year with the colors. I do however mourn the passing into winter. That season... I HATE!! Yuck.

Nothing will compare to New England fall. It is stunning. But being up in the mountains of Utah, might just make the sadness of missing a New England fall a little more bearable. :)